What's Gone In

This is a list of the media I’ve consumed for this project, or inputs. Some have outputs, which are dedicated creations inspired by their input. Others are just my thoughts on the media. I also got lazy and didnt make specific pages for most of my inputs, but if youd like to discuss them with me im more than willing! Most, if not all, of these subpages mention sensitive content. I've added content warnings for major topics, but given my project’s focus, none of these are ‘safe.’


Ice by Anna Kavan
An unnamed narrator obsessively chases after a dream-like, delicate girl through an apocalyptic winter wasteland.
(CW: abuse, destitute living conditions)

My Year of Rest and Relaxation by Ottessa Moshfegh
A beautiful, young, and distraught woman decides to sleep for a year in order to fix her issues.
(CW: substance abuse)

One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest by Ken Kesey
The story of a rebellious, rambunctious man disrupting the oppressive order of a cold-hearted nurse, as narrated by a supposedly deaf and dumb inpatient.
(CW: typical 60s racism and sexism, institutional abuse)

We Need to Talk About Kevin (2011)
The mother of a teenage boy who went on a school killing spree deals with her grief. The movie explores how she raised her son and how she's been treated because of it. Kevin recognized that his mother didn't want him from a young age. He pushes this to the edge by tormenting his mother and others around him.
(CW: child abuse, school violence)

Diary of an Oxygen Thief by Anonymous
A now sober alcoholic admits his wrongs and confesses the story of how he hurt women for pleasure, and how he got his karma.
(CW: substance use, emotional abuse)

Perverts by Ethel Cain
A deeply disturbing dark ambient/industrial drone/spoken word EP. It explores ideas of sex, masturbation, religion, and shame.
(CW: substance use, pedophilia, religious guilt)

Notes from Underground by Fyodor Dostoevsky
The rants and rambles of a hermit whose consciousness is a disease that leaves him paralyzed. This narrator believes that suffering is fundamental to human existence, and that we even enjoy it, thus things like rationalism and utopia are impossible.
(CW: very misanthropic...)

Zero Day (2003)
A mockumentary of the found footage taken by two high school boys as they plan an attack on their school.
(CW: school shooting)